BulgingButtons

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My Buttons Are Still Bulging

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b5b8a726fa0ece911dd398f8ec771afdIt occurs to me that this blog, which started off so hopeful and energetic, is taking a turn for the suck-ish. Sure, there are lots of you who read every post (or nearly every) and very often you leave helpful, encouraging feedback. I love you for it more than you will every know. But honestly, I’m afraid that lately I’m not giving you what you came for.

Bulging Buttons, the blog. I liked the sound of it. It neatly summed up my physical state in a way that was realistic, but not too harsh or judgmental. I started off strong. I was eating well (sometimes), working out (sometimes), and writing a lot. I had plans… big plans. Forty-seven of them, to be precise. I was going to get fit, dammit, and take you all along for the ride. Woo Hoo! Great plan right? Except it hasn’t happened.

As usual, life got in the way of my big plans. No, I’m not going to offer up lots of excuses. I really don’t have any. Nothing horrible has happened in my life over the past several months. In fact, it’s been rather fabulous. I’m enjoying my work, my relationship is great, and life in general is pretty darn good. Okay, so the house hasn’t sold as quickly as I might have liked, but really I’m ok. Considering that’s the biggest stress in my life, I’m doing just fine.

Now here comes the shocker. I’m still fat. Fatter than when I started the blog. My sneakers haven’t worn out, my jeans are tighter than ever, and my eating habits are once again horrific. I know better. I know that I’ll sleep better, I’ll look better, and I’ll feel better if I can just shake myself off and get going again. I know I’ll be a better role model and have more energy. I know I’ll like the way I look in the mirror better and I’ll dread going to the doctor less. I know, I know, I know. I also know that I’ll have more to write about for the folks who found encouragement in what I was doing right, back when I was doing it.

So here I go again, publicly declaring that I wish to improve my overall health and fitness through diet and exercise. UGH. I wish this was easy, but it isn’t. The beautiful thing is, I know I’m not alone, and I know you’re here to help cheer me on, not matter how badly I fail.

Author: BulgingButtons

I'm a middle aged woman doing the things that middle aged women do and trying not to beat myself up. I'm living the life I choose with the man I love, the teenage son who impresses me all the time, and the most adorable pup ever rescued from the euthanasia list. We live in the heat of the Southwest, where I regularly sweat through my Lane Bryant bras.

24 thoughts on “My Buttons Are Still Bulging

  1. I’m recommitting to recommitment tomorrow, if that makes any sense 🙂

    All blogs go through stages, I worry about if I post too many “blue” posts in a row, but people still participate and read. We all go through it, so that is why we stick by during those times too.

  2. I am the queen of good intentions (and we all know where THOSE lead). After my three months of post-hip-surgery therapeutic walking I looked thinner and felt great. Now, after being back at work for four months my pants are getting tight again. I need to get back on track too. Perhaps we can offer some mutual encouragement!

  3. “I wish this was easy, but it isn’t.” <– Yes. you're right. It isn't easy. In fact, it's really, really hard. But it is so worth it. Trust me.

  4. You never failed. You just had maybe a little setback, as I call it. Now you’re ready to get back up and try again. You got this, girl! Good luck! 🙂

  5. I know it isn’t easy :o) And yes, you are not alone :o)

  6. I can understand your frustration. It would be better if we had someone to prepare our meals and snacks for us – as well as train with us everyday. Alas, that is just a dream.

  7. I keep thinking IF I CAN JUST GET SOME SLEEP I’ll have more energy to work out, blah blah blah but I know in my heart it’s all related. It’s like a circle. A doughnut is a circle. So is a cheesewheel. Cheeeeeeeeese… (slapping self!)

    Today’s a new day! We can do it!

  8. Came across your blog via Swirls of Truth and I must say I’m glad to have found it. As a fellow gal with a bit more to love on her bones, the message you spread here is awesome. Keep on keepin’ on.

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