It occurs to me that this blog, which started off so hopeful and energetic, is taking a turn for the suck-ish. Sure, there are lots of you who read every post (or nearly every) and very often you leave helpful, encouraging feedback. I love you for it more than you will every know. But honestly, I’m afraid that lately I’m not giving you what you came for.
Bulging Buttons, the blog. I liked the sound of it. It neatly summed up my physical state in a way that was realistic, but not too harsh or judgmental. I started off strong. I was eating well (sometimes), working out (sometimes), and writing a lot. I had plans… big plans. Forty-seven of them, to be precise. I was going to get fit, dammit, and take you all along for the ride. Woo Hoo! Great plan right? Except it hasn’t happened.
As usual, life got in the way of my big plans. No, I’m not going to offer up lots of excuses. I really don’t have any. Nothing horrible has happened in my life over the past several months. In fact, it’s been rather fabulous. I’m enjoying my work, my relationship is great, and life in general is pretty darn good. Okay, so the house hasn’t sold as quickly as I might have liked, but really I’m ok. Considering that’s the biggest stress in my life, I’m doing just fine.
Now here comes the shocker. I’m still fat. Fatter than when I started the blog. My sneakers haven’t worn out, my jeans are tighter than ever, and my eating habits are once again horrific. I know better. I know that I’ll sleep better, I’ll look better, and I’ll feel better if I can just shake myself off and get going again. I know I’ll be a better role model and have more energy. I know I’ll like the way I look in the mirror better and I’ll dread going to the doctor less. I know, I know, I know. I also know that I’ll have more to write about for the folks who found encouragement in what I was doing right, back when I was doing it.
So here I go again, publicly declaring that I wish to improve my overall health and fitness through diet and exercise. UGH. I wish this was easy, but it isn’t. The beautiful thing is, I know I’m not alone, and I know you’re here to help cheer me on, not matter how badly I fail.
April 5, 2014 at 6:26 pm
I’m recommitting to recommitment tomorrow, if that makes any sense 🙂
All blogs go through stages, I worry about if I post too many “blue” posts in a row, but people still participate and read. We all go through it, so that is why we stick by during those times too.
April 5, 2014 at 7:35 pm
Well said. Here’s to keeping on!
April 5, 2014 at 6:39 pm
April 5, 2014 at 7:36 pm
Tomorrow… I’ll go tomorrow! 🙂
April 5, 2014 at 7:06 pm
I am the queen of good intentions (and we all know where THOSE lead). After my three months of post-hip-surgery therapeutic walking I looked thinner and felt great. Now, after being back at work for four months my pants are getting tight again. I need to get back on track too. Perhaps we can offer some mutual encouragement!
April 5, 2014 at 7:36 pm
I’m all for it! Being accountable certainly is motivating. 🙂
April 6, 2014 at 7:16 am
I have to confess I’m not off to a great start– eating peanut butter on white bread for breakfast while I check my messages from the comfort of my bed…
But the day is young and there are walks to be had.
April 6, 2014 at 9:27 am
Ok, let’s get going!
April 6, 2014 at 10:40 am
I went for a 30 minute walk. I really need new walking shoes. My old ones are starting to rub.
April 6, 2014 at 2:21 pm
Good for you! About the walk, not the shoes, of course. 🙂
April 5, 2014 at 7:16 pm
“I wish this was easy, but it isn’t.” <– Yes. you're right. It isn't easy. In fact, it's really, really hard. But it is so worth it. Trust me.
April 5, 2014 at 7:37 pm
I trust you, Nancy! You are so wise and you have certainly walked the walk.
April 5, 2014 at 7:40 pm
If it’s a priority for you, you will make this happen. I believe this wholeheartedly.
April 6, 2014 at 12:05 am
You never failed. You just had maybe a little setback, as I call it. Now you’re ready to get back up and try again. You got this, girl! Good luck! 🙂
April 6, 2014 at 9:26 am
Yours is the first message I’ve read this morning, and it’s a great one! Thanks for starting my day on a positive note. 🙂
April 6, 2014 at 9:00 pm
Good. Glad you got your day off to a good start. I hope it stayed good all day. 🙂
April 6, 2014 at 5:09 am
I know it isn’t easy :o) And yes, you are not alone :o)
April 6, 2014 at 9:26 am
I know, I have lots of company. 🙂
April 6, 2014 at 7:29 am
I can understand your frustration. It would be better if we had someone to prepare our meals and snacks for us – as well as train with us everyday. Alas, that is just a dream.
April 6, 2014 at 9:28 am
It’s a great dream. It would certainly take away a lot of excuses.
April 7, 2014 at 8:51 am
I keep thinking IF I CAN JUST GET SOME SLEEP I’ll have more energy to work out, blah blah blah but I know in my heart it’s all related. It’s like a circle. A doughnut is a circle. So is a cheesewheel. Cheeeeeeeeese… (slapping self!)
Today’s a new day! We can do it!
April 7, 2014 at 11:11 am
Focus, girl, focus! 🙂
April 19, 2014 at 5:55 pm
Came across your blog via Swirls of Truth and I must say I’m glad to have found it. As a fellow gal with a bit more to love on her bones, the message you spread here is awesome. Keep on keepin’ on.
April 19, 2014 at 7:42 pm
Thanks for the love! 🙂