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All About the Story

Imagine you’re 15 and your undocumented immigrant mother has told you that the family is running away, again. You shove everything into a trash bag, and help your little sister do the same. At 3 am you arrive at the Sonoran Court Apartments, your new home. Your neighbor is a shadowy Sudanese immigrant. His ties with the supernatural world are terrifying, and he’s trying to convince you that you’re in danger. This is Daisy’s life.

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I’m glad I’m here. I’m glad I’m learning. And I’m glad that the main message, over and over, is, “it’s all about the story.”

So what that means, in short, is I have to get back to the story. Grrr. No, really, I love the story. I do. I just have to finish my revisions. You know, making the story better. The plot chasm I’ve been fretting over has a solution that I’ve been working on, so there’s that.

So now it’s time to get back to it. After the workshop, of course. I can do this, I know I can. Daisy needs me.


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Welcome to the Tiniest Month Challenge

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February is so short it seems like it begins and ends in a flash.

What better month for a challenge, then?

So here’s my challenge to myself, and by extension to all of you:

Pick something and stick with it. Every. Day.

At least for this tiny month of February.

Some ideas that have rattled around my brain:

  • hit my Fitbit steps goal everyday
  • take time to read for pleasure
  • eat vegetables
  • mindfully give a compliment
  • write
  • avoid social media
  • stay out of Starbucks
  • call Mom

We all have things that we “should” do that we neglect. Since this is such a short month why not pick one and stick to it? It’s only 28 days, after all.

In an ideal world I would do ALL of the things on my above list everyday, but I don’t. I’m going to pick ONE and stick with it, but what to pick?

I see my ideas in roughly 3 categories: mental health, physical health, and social connectedness (which, really, is a part of staying mentally healthy I suppose). For me, physical health is the most urgent of those needs at the moment. To that end I choose the first goal: to reach my steps goal each day.

I would love to have company on my tiniest month challenge. If you’re interested please comment with your tiny month goal, and don’t worry if the month has already begun, you can start anytime you want!


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A Walk

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I took myself on a walk this morning

Through the smoke and fog of time

Along the path covered in weeds

Back to the place I had almost forgotten

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

To the place where you held me

And told me you loved me

And made promises you meant to keep

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

To a place where I hadn’t yet heard of deceit

Where slander was unknown to me

And I assumed everyone was truthful

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

And turned my sight inward

And finally admitted

That I always knew there were lies

Because I was always a liar

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

And it felt good

To be out

To be free

To be on my own

In this space

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

And my shoe rubbed

And my foot ached

And my breath was short

And it was okay

Because I was feeling it all

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

And I was thankful

For the day

And the shoes

And the path

And the history I have carved into the limestone of my life

 

I took myself on a walk this morning

But I never left my home

I never left my head

I never went anywhere at all