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Daily Passion Prompt 10: World’s Best



 What do you think you could be amongst the BEST in the world at doing?

Chocolate_browniesThis is a horribly difficult question. I keep thinking of things that I think I’m good at, but then I start to extend that thinking into the realm of best, and I shut down. I mean come on, I make great brownies, but amongst the best in the world? That’s a stretch.

I’m a good mother, and probably the perfect mother for my own particular kid, but am I amongst the world’s best? Only on a Hallmark card, I’m afraid. There are times that I allow him to do things that maybe I shouldn’t. There are times when I should be giving him more guidance than I do. There are times when I lose my cool with him. But really, he’s fifteen. Nobody’s perfect, right? Even the world’s best mothers lose it sometimes.

0004158_heart-worlds-best-mom-mugIn terms of my other close relationships, I doubt that I rank amongst the world’s best at any of them. As a daughter, fiancée, sister, and friend, I’m sure I have plenty to be desired. I’m the one that forgets to send the birthday card. I’m the one who didn’t remember that you were having that procedure done today. I’m the one who should have called you yesterday. It’s not that I don’t care. I do. It’s just that I haven’t quite mastered putting reminders into my phone.

163427051_worlds-best-teacher-tote-bagsHow about teaching? Could I be amongst the world’s best at that? Not according to the current standards of evaluation that are in place, at least in most American public schools. Within the constricts that teachers have, and with the amount of national testing that is done, I don’t believe that the way I teach my students will ever rank at the top of the ladder, not even in my own state, let alone the entire world. Honestly, I’m okay with that. I believe in what I do with my students, but I always see areas for improvement too. I’m not in it for awards or recognition, I’m in it to educate.

Well then, how about my hobbies? Quilting and scrapbooking are both creative outlets that I enjoy, but amongst the best? Not my quilting, that’s for sure. My seams don’t always meet quite the way they’re supposed to and my attempts at machine quilting, while they are improving, have a long way to go. My scrapbooking, while it has a crisp clean style that I like, has been on the back burner for so long that I hardly consider myself a scrapbooker any more.

So that leaves the written word. Could I hone my craft to the point where I’m a serious writer? Could I practice and improve to the point where my material is not only high enough quality for publication, but of enough interest to actually make it into the hands of readers? There is a part of me that thinks I can. Again, that “world’s best” is causing me some problems, but if I tone that down a bit, I see some potential. I read. I have read many books that have left me cold and thought to myself that I could do better. The difference, however, between those authors and me is that they finished their books and got them not only published, but sold. If they could do it, certainly I can too.

Author: BulgingButtons

I'm a middle aged woman doing the things that middle aged women do and trying not to beat myself up. I'm living the life I choose with the man I love, the grown up son who impresses me all the time, and the most adorable pup ever rescued from the euthanasia list. We live in the heat of the Southwest, where I regularly sweat through my Lane Bryant bras.

5 thoughts on “Daily Passion Prompt 10: World’s Best

  1. *best* anything is a terrible thought … it means perfection … and how boring is that?

    Mastering one skill or technique in whatever only opens yet another door onto something new to discover and try to learn. And isn’t learning …. continually learning …. what it’s all about? Forget “best” …. just be the you who you are in the moment and that’s that. Nothing is ever the same twice …. even if we think it is.

    As for the writing …. one word at a time = one sentence + another sentence = a few more + a dollop of something added to the mix and viola …. a paragraph. Ad infinitum 🙂

    • You are so wise. I’m headed over to your blog to learn more now. Thank you.

      • Well …. I don’t think I’d be using the word *wise* …. just sometimes well-versed …. BUT … I’m one who can honestly say “Do as I say, NOT as I do.”

        In other words …. I’m one of the many who also have the same feelings you share …. we think …. “if only” or “I could …” but we get cold feet or back down etc. But I’ve come to really appreciate that it all begins with the simplest of actions …. a few words here, a few words there … and it *is* possible. And here’s ‘a truth’ (in my opinion) …. if not now, then when? I think it boils down to self-confidence and self-truth …. I often ask myself this: do you want to live a life of “is only(s)” or “I should have(s)” or at least try?

        I too am learning in this process … and am gaining the confidence to slowly move forwards.

      • One step at a time, regardless of the direction, as long as they end up where you’re headed!

      • 🙂 wise words from you too

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