Not bad for a fat girl

Here We Go, Again


Here I sit, Sunday night, drinking my water and feeling pretty good about having eaten only half of my dragon noodles (they were soooooo good!). I’m patting myself on the back because I spent about two hours walking around the home and garden show with my guys. So what if there was no inspiration to be found at the show? I hoofed it and got a little exercise, not to mention the hike across the fairground parking lot and back. Oh yeah, I’m a health nut.o-WOMAN-FEET-SCALE-facebook

Not really.

You know me too well.

If these lame examples are what I’m counting as successes, I’m really not succeeding. I can do better. I can do more.

I want to use selling my house as an excuse. I want to blame my terrible eating habits on having to keep the kitchen clean for any potential visitors, but really that’s baloney. I can eat yogurt or fruit without making a mess. A pre-made salad takes no effort or time to prepare, and has very little clean up. I’m lying to myself, and it’s showing.

My waistline is expanding, my breathing is labored, and the tingling in my hands from my carpal tunnel is getting worse by the day (I swear it’s related to my weight and overall health).

My last doctor’s appointment wasn’t exactly great. We had the talk. Again.

I want to do better. I want to feel better. I know a way that might help, but the question is do I want to commit?

Yes, folks, I’m thinking about going back to Weight Watchers. Again. They always welcome me with open arms and big smiles (of course I do pay them) . I like the meetings. I like the accountability. I even like the structure. The question is, am I willing to put in the work?

I guess we’ll see, because I’m going to do it. Tomorrow I sign up. Again. Wish me luck.

Author: BulgingButtons

I'm a middle aged woman doing the things that middle aged women do and trying not to beat myself up. I'm living the life I choose with the man I love, the grown up son who impresses me all the time, and the most adorable pup ever rescued from the euthanasia list. We live in the heat of the Southwest, where I regularly sweat through my Lane Bryant bras.

17 thoughts on “Here We Go, Again

  1. Good luck 🙂 I am back to my “good habits” tomorrow too.

  2. Good luck! Will be thinking of you as I think of me (trying to recover from a few days holiday where all of my good healthy intentions went through the window – my coach will not be impressed when I rejoin him tomorrow …. sigh). But I agree it’s one day at a time, along with one meal at a time and one exercise session at a time. You can do it!

  3. I know so well what you are going through. Eating, unfortunately, is rarely about needing nutrion, but more often about our emotional needs or to reduce the feeling of being stressed. It is so much easier to put something into your mouth than to say “No” or take deep breaths or whatever. And, to make it all more difficult, pastries, icecream, chocolates and cookies taste a lot better than broccoli, plain yoghurt and celery sticks.
    Good luck to you!

  4. Good luck, my paws and our fingers are crossed. I’m more the “lonesome cowboy” when it comes to diets, it works better for me than to join a group.

  5. I feel your pain!! Its just not easy for some of us. I feel that I do my best when I take it 1 meal at a time, 1 hour at a time, rather than trying to jump in and do it all, at once. I’m an “instant gratification” kinda girl so I struggle. You can do it!

  6. Good luck BB! And if you’re looking for some extra motivation, hop on over and see the May monthly challenge I just posted, I’m inviting everyone to publish their own May health/fitness goals as a means to hold ourselves and each other accountable. Think about it! 🙂

  7. I’m right here with you, I did so well Nov, and Dec. I’ve struggled mercilessly since then. I felt so good, then, life get’s in the way. I started weight watchers about 2 weeks ago and have done nothing. Today, I’m trying again. ugh.

  8. Pingback: monthly challenges recap: May edition | my year[s] of sweat!

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