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Bribing Myself

dog treatIf you’ve ever trained a dog, you know that rewards go a long way. The look of anticipation, the concentration, and the willingness to do something that goes against their impulse is astounding. Given the right treat, my dog would do almost anything I ask of her (except coexist with cats, but that’s a whole different post).

705Treats work great with children too. I’ve seen kids do remarkable things for the chance at a jolly rancher candy. This, of course, was back in the day before the state decided that our children were too obese to have an occasional piece of candy at school.  I know of teachers who have gotten good results with pretzels, animal crackers, goldfish, and m & m’s.  I may have even used some of those myself. The thing is, you can get desired behavior fairly consistently when there is a prized reward available.

img-thingUnderstanding this concept, I decided to apply it to myself. I’ve decided to reward myself at each ten pound milestone. I’ve already lost over ten pounds from my start date, but I’ll call it ten and count from this point forward.  I’ve decided to make my reward something meaningful and beautiful and lasting. What I’ve come up with are beads for my bracelet. I have a Pandora bracelet that is pretty much full, but I also have one that is completely empty. I polished it up and put it on. This weekend I hope to get my first ten pound bead. From this point forward, I hope to commemorate each increment of ten with a new bead. I expect that seeing that bracelet fill in will be extremely motivating. I will have those beads with me, reminding me of where I’ve come from, and how difficult it has been. These beads aren’t cheap, but my health and well being are worth it.  I’m looking forward to bribing myself and building my bracelet.


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Yay, Me!

imagesI’ve just come from a check up and I’m doing the happy dance. Ok, so maybe my labs aren’t perfect. I already knew that. But they are improving in most areas, and my doctor is very pleased with my progress. Hooray! That means way more than the number on the scale. It means the quality of my life.

He also noticed that my thyroid isn’t functioning quite the way it should be, and prescribed some medication that should make losing the weight a bit easier, and give me more energy. Yes, please. This isn’t some garbage that some fly by night company is pushing on infomercials, it’s actual FDA approved medication prescribed by an actual medical doctor familiar with me and my actual body. I know there are many people who are doubters about medication, but I don’t tend to be one of them. I trust my doctor and respect his judgement. He will closely monitor me and make adjustments as needed.

I’m really on cloud nine right now, and feeling good about the positive changes I’ve been making. Honestly, though, I was afraid that the doctor would look at my labs and tell me all the things I was doing wrong. That didn’t happen. The numbers were in my favor, and he could see the results in black and white. The really weird thing is, now I’m looking forward to my next appointment and the positive changes that will be evident by then.


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Fighting the Failing Feeling

629305I knew this was coming. I braced myself. I thought I was ready. Turns out I really wasn’t. My time off work ended and the last two weeks have been busy and hectic and a challenge. They have also been energizing and fun and satisfying, but they’ve been awful in terms of taking good care of myself. My sleep has been lousy, I haven’t exercised nearly enough, and I’ve been eating poorly. Turns out old habits are hard to break. I knew this, of course. I even tried to plan for it. The sad truth is, though, that at the end of a long and busy work day I find it difficult to exercise and prepare nutritious meals. I’m trying. And eventually I’ll get it, but I’m not quite there yet. In the meantime, though, it would probably help if I stayed away from cinnamon bears and beer. UGH.